"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb." Psalm 139:13 NIV
When my parents decided to name me Sarah, they were starting a legacy. My legacy really started way before that, as God first thought about me and was creating me before my parents even knew me, much less were thinking of my name. My parents decided to name me, Sarah. Sarah means "Princess." Well, HOW APPROPRIATE! My parents prayer and most important desire was for me to have a personal relationship with the Lord, to know God - THE MIGHTY KING. They wanted me to be a child of The King! While I accepted Christ as my personal savior when I was 5 years old, my faith really didn't become my own until between 2nd semester of my senior year of high school and on into my freshman year of college. My faith really took off my sophomore year of college, and has grown since. I am A DAUGHTER OF THE KING!!!
This past February (2010), I sat in a group of ladies and my perceptions of comments these ladies were saying, was hearing that unless one is married they are not complete in Christ. I disagreed, I still do. I left this conversation questioning a lot of things, discouraged, beat up (or really down)...just not in a good spot. Now satan, wanting to take this conversation and try to mess me up, kept hitting me with thoughts, questions, and still not in a good spot. However, I KNEW the truth and battled back with TRUTH of how this concept of not being complete in Christ because I'm not married was not Biblical and how my identity is in Christ. The battle went on in my mind. Being much stronger, the Lord also blessed me with great friends (AB, LM, CB, DO) and my mom and sister who spoke truth and walked this path of struggle with me. In the end, God's truth remains strong and I know that I am complete in Christ. No man, no job, no hobby, no friend, NOTHING can make me complete - only God can. I am A DAUGHTER OF THE KING, I am chosen, I am loved, I am forgiven.
Little did I know what was coming in the next few months...God knew though. He knew being so strong on the truth that I am complete because of Him would become such a strong foundation for what was coming in the summer. In June, I would be hit with HARD news - choices of friends - of people I looked up, respected, trusted, loved, and were role models to me. I wondered whom I could trust. I wondered who people really were. I wondered what happens that people can't be real, that who I thought these people were weren't really who they were at all. God brought me to a place where I KNEW I could trust Him, He would never leave me nor forsake me, He was my foundation, I was complete because of Him.
The summer continued...one rough thing after another. These are the words I wrote to a friend to explain the best I could on what life was like:
"This is how I feel - falling on my face on pavement while sprinting...and as I slowly start to get up, being slapped in the face again only to be knocked back down...and repeat...repeat each week for 9 weeks...yes that has been my summer. While it may not sound like fun, if you let God use these times and seek Him in the midst - well you can see beauty out of ashes...really! I'm NOT saying I haven't had struggles, just saying that I'm determined to let God rule over this and not me, my emotions or thoughts, or other people. It's been a summer full of losses and grief...but God has continued to remain faithful and stable. Life can literally crumble around you, but God doesn't. Some days I hate it, some days are hard...but God has never left me and has continued to work on me. I admit, I have had days where I wanted to run away yet how does that allow God to work in the midst of the ashes...and am I trusting Him in the midst of the situation or my emotions/thoughts instead?"
In the midst of this though I had SWEET times with the Lord! What an incredible blessing! I reflect back, and look at how grateful I am that God loves me SO MUCH, for the HOPE I have through HIM, for how I am complete in HIM, and how THE KING cherishes this little Princess!!
And so, this is the start of my journey in blogging the journey of "A Daughter Of The KIng!"
Awesome Sarah. I can tell you as one who is married (and to a wonderful man of God), and has kids, that truly it is only Christ that completes us because he is the only one that is perfect. No one understands me like Jesus, which can feel frustrating, but it is also good. You are so loved by Him, He is your completer, and He has a special plan for your life. I look forward to seeing you soon. XOXO Jill
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